This charred chicken pretty much sums up my life during the month of April. Our foundation is unscathed and still good, but our edges are a little crispy and hard to chew. This month has sucked. In fact, I can’t say much for the month of March either. Between my mom and P’s car accident and losing my cat, its just been a rough spring for our family. I guess I should count my blessings that Porter has been sleeping through the night lately (praise the Lord for that) but life is extra hard when Ryan is gone more nights than not because he’s so consumed with studying for this darn Professional Engineer exam. I really shouldn’t say “darn” when referring to it, because passing it would mean a whole lot for our little family. You really can’t move forward in the engineering world without passing your PE, which is why they make it so difficult. Having a California civil engineering stamp is no easy feat.
But I miss my husband.
Seriously – I miss him so much. He has been rotating between spending nights at my parent’s house and his brother’s house – and on the weekends, he’s at the library. Our relationship was founded in long distance, so you’d think this would be a breeze for me. Why can’t I just revert to that long distance state of mind? Probably because we’re living in a different time and we are THAT much closer than we were before. Since that time, we have fallen even more in love with each other, experienced numerous life trials together, got married, bought a house and had a baby. He is my best friend, my soulmate, my rock, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I’ve known people who have told me they like when their spouses leave town and I’m extremely grateful I am not in that type of a marriage. Not to say I don’t enjoy some me/girl time every now and again, but my heart hurts when Ryan can’t be with us – and I know Porter misses his daddy.
April 22nd is the magic day – Ryan’s final test. After that day, we’ll have him back and this will all be over. Having that light at the end of the tunnel definitely helps, but it got me thinking about all the moms out there who have husbands with jobs that take them away on a regular basis, have long hours, or are serving in the military – kudos to you ladies. You deserve all the respect in the world. Not to mention all of the single mamas out there – hugs to you. Being a mom is the hardest, most rewarding job on the planet – and you don’t really understand the depth of just how hard and rewarding until you take the plunge into motherhood yourself.
So…cheers to April 22nd coming to us sooner rather than later. We’re almost there.
Despite this Debbie Downer blog post, I know we have so much to be thankful for. We have our health and we have each other. Despite a few setbacks, we’ve had some good times this spring – here are some highlights:
I sure do love my people.