an open letter to my mom

Dear mom,

Mother’s Day has a whole new meaning to me. I have never in my life doubted your unconditional love for me, but I don’t think I really understood how much you loved me until I held Porter in my arms for the first time.

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I’ve gotta say, I don’t really see myself as being THAT lovable, yet you’ve shown me your unconditional love throughout my entire life, and still do to this day. You showed it when I was a colicy baby crying for hours on end and refusing to take a bottle. You showed it to me through your patience during my toddler years of telling everyone “I want to do it by me-self!” even though I obviously could not do it by “me-self.” You showed it to me as a kid when you never hesitated to put my needs before your own – even when dealing with the loss of your father and a divorce in the same 0031269119_10201365140986756_424735678_oB704

You continued to show your unconditional love for me when I became a sassy teenager, through all the drama of growing up – the challenges I faced with boyfriends, girl “friends,” classes, cheerleading, going away to college, choosing a major, joining a sorority, my move to LA after college and everything else you can possibly think of that’s associated with growing up. You were my shoulder to cry on when Dad would disappoint me over and over again – even into my adulthood. You were there for me through breakups, new jobs, no jobs, countless moves, falling in love, getting engaged, my wedding, pregnancy, buying a house and having Porter. Even through the birth of my baby, you continue to treat me as if I was still your baby – and now I see you showing that same level of love to Porter and the twins – you are turning out to be as good of a Nana as you were a Mother, which makes these kids pretty lucky if you ask me.

The point is, you are always there, cheering me on through the good times and the bad and I never feel any ounce of uncertainty of your unconditional love for me. So thank you for always being there, no matter what, and for loving me even when I’m unlovable.

Happy Mother’s Day

All my love,

Bethany Lynne